um, I object.
i’m going to cry. ryan is going to make me kill myself. and i’ll probably make him kill himself. what the fuck is going on? i feel nothing and everything at the same time. this is ridiculous. ryan loves me and is damn sure that he will never find love again. i am the only one he wants. can i feel like a shittier person? why yes, i can. i’m such a fucking bitch and a fucking...
i wish i could find happiness, or happiness could find me.
I’m not going to sleep tonight.
Good night until I got home, of bloody fucking course. Thanks mom.
Eric and I are going to go eat at Friday’s then we are going to see Get Him To The Greek at the Crystal Lake theater. Should be a good night. I’m almost done packing for vacation. I really don’t want to go on vacation. I mean, I’m glad I get to see family but I just don’t have the urge to leave home. I don’t know. Gotta start lovin’ shit. Peace world.
2010 FIFA WORLD CUP
Can I please mean nothing to you?
Sometimes, I hate my family. But not really. I think I just want to be alone from the world. From everyone.
So umm… potatoe chips and ketchup is like awesome. :)
A good night turned into a bad fucking day.
T o d a y s P l a n . . .
Get ready and zoom off to WORK; Work til NOON?; Come home, eat and read; PACK for vaykay; Go see Get Him To The Greek with Eric; Go to the Store? I need EYELINER.; Find my notebook filled with my important shit; EDIT some Pages stuff along with pictures. I wish I had a fucking laptop so I could play on the Internet in the car while we drive to Vermont. I have three books though to read in the...
Good fucking night. :)
Dude. Ashley. Im reealy high. Haha. Brand new is fucking incredible right now.– I love my friends(:
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare The shadow in backround of the morgue The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me And we’ll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we’ll wish this never ends We’ll wish this never ends Where are you and I’m so sorry I cannot sleep I cannot dream...
I think imma dye my hairs back to black(: I dig black more than blondeeee.
I’m feelin’ a bit better, but I still feel lost within my own thoughts. I’m unsure what to do. I can only hope that things turn out good.
June 7, 2010
Is this really happening? I’m completely losing my grip. I’m tired of people. If it weren’t for people, I wouldn’t be in this situation. I feel like I’m falling back into a depression, just like when Ryan broke up with me and I thought I had lost him forever. I don’t want to move. I don’t want to eat. I don’t want to talk. Just nothing. Empty spaces....
I’m crying. Are you fucking kidding me?
This smile will not go away. That was the cutest car ride ever. I have butterflies still. Gahhh. I can’t stop thinking about it.
He kissed me :)
I’m so fucking happy I can’t believe it =]
So… Eric just told me he really likes me in the cutest way and he understands that I just got out of a relationship… I think this is a good sign. I hope (fingers crossed) Tomorrow we’re going to Buffalo Wild Wings together to watch the game. I’m pretty excited. but there are still so many other things going on… Josh kissed me one night after we hung out. Then I saw...
I’m happeeeee, but ignoring all the bad won’t last forever.
Oh. My. Gosh. I’m so happy! but… problems!!!!!
I’ve texted Eric everyday for the past week like 24/7 Does that mean I like him??? cause I think I really do.
ahhhhhhhh! what am I doing? I’m so fucking screwed…
I think I really like him(: